Abstruse one

I know life can be Beautiful and kind.  why do I cry myself to sleep ? Will I be able to survive another night? I'm hugging my knees I think i m dying ...and nowhere to go What can fix me? How can i escape this? Lookin' like hell on wheels The tiniest lifeboat with people smell desperate - I tell them this is how it feels when they don't wanna hear me.... They stay silent !!!!! Every personal experiences are  universal truths Pure adoration or distilled hate, Loneliness is devastating ,damaging and frightening, Still I'll endure it- like any other night, holding hands of darkness inside of me And we can be kind once more,we can be beautiful.

There is a thing about fear It's always there ! Fear of the unknown, fear of facing it alone.... Fear that those close to you, you barely know them She was out there alone, bereft, unmoored.  What makes a place feel like home? Is it warmth ? Familiarity?  Some say it's my undying tough love. It's not easy to love someone when you are sure of not getting it back,sure of hurting yourself, living with darkness inside.  Walking backwards down the memory lane it feel I loved a complete stranger. Or was I stranger to his unknown Land.  I m captivated with lies and promises I was made to believe. Pain that consumes me with joy.

This world is ugly and crass, people lie and people leave , and the beauty that does exist , is fleeting and insincere. Every now and than someone comes along  who will make you believe in love, you can keep the monster at bay . You needed to be sacred from unfairness of everything . From every masquerading as a man ,  That you let into your body ,your heart  You learned you didn't have , whatever magic turns a beast into a prince , So can you live like this ? say you love him ? say thank you to him ? say anything but the truth