Abstruse one

When you’re up against a trouble,  Meet it squarely, face to face;  Lift your chin and set your shoulders,  Plant your feet and take a brace.  When it’s vain to try to dodge it,  Do the best that you can do;  You may fail, but you may conquer,  See it through!  Black may be the clouds about you  And your future may seem grim,  But don’t let your nerve desert you;  Keep yourself in fighting trim.  If the worst is bound to happen,  Spite of all that you can do,  Running from it will not save you,  See it through!  Even hope may seem but futile,  When with troubles you’re beset,  But remember you are facing  Just what other men have met.  You may fail, but fall still fighting;  Don’t give up, whatever you do.

First impressions can be strong About those we see around. Yet how often are they wrong? That is the truth I've found. Not all who cry are weak. Not everyone who looks can see. Not all who are quiet are meek. Not all who nod agree. Not all who snarl are cruel. Not everyone generous is just. Not everyone clumsy is a fool. Not all who wander are lost. We never know people's character. In just a single instance. We never know who people are By judging from a distance. But whether we like it or not, We'll always be around people. Is it better to know a few people a lot Or a lot of people a little? I'd rather know a few people a lot Than a lot of people a little.

I want to cry I want to scream I want to tell you mostly I hate that I'm so afraid of everything I hate that you're the one thing I want the most but can't have I hate that you let me go before I got even got to say goodbye I wish that you would come back to me I wish I were strong enough to say no to you I wish I could believe my own lies I use to cover up the pain you left I need to move on, says my head I need to hold on, says my heart I need to decide, says my mind I envy the way this hasn't hurt you at all I envy her I envy the fact you don't understand what this feels like at all I want to hurt you I want to be with you I want this nightmare to be over I wish I could make things how they were before you I wish I could change time I wish I could change you I wish I could have hurt you before you hurt me I wish I would have given you the letter when I wanted  I need you out of my thoughts I need you out of my heart I need to start doing ...

I want to be your favorite hello, And I want to be your hardest goodbye. I want to be the one who never makes you cry, The one who puts that sparkle in your eye. I want to be the one you trust, And I want to be the one you can tell all your secrets to. I want to be the one always by your side, The one you're stuck to like glue. I want to be the one who makes you happy, And I want to be the one who makes you smile. I want to be the one waiting for you as you're walking down the aisle, The one to whom you'd say, "For you I'd walk a thousand miles." I want to be the one you truly love, And I want to be the one who fills your heart. I want to be the one who's always there to hold you in the dark, The one who loved you from the very start

Nobody knows how different I am The outside of me is not afraid Not full of pain, or even ashamed I smile and all of those ignorant fools believe Of course nothing could be wrong with me My eyes are dry, I do not shed year's I laugh and talk and play along Keep on existing as if nothings wrong Nobody knows how different I am The inside of me is hollow and empty Do not fret , for I do not want your pity I'm tattered and broken beyond repair My heart is crumbling and full of despair I'm bloodied and beaten and not really living I just go through the motions and continue existing I'm scared and lost, clueless as can be Is there no one out there to help me Nobody knows how different I am And that will never change

She's a soft cool rain on a hot summer's day. She makes all laugh with the funny things she has to say. She's the beat of hearts She's the sun and the wind, and autumn's golden leaves. She's the pride She's that warm feeling I get, when I remember tucking her in at night. She is homework and sports, and a busy social life. She has this beautiful smile that could light the darkest night. She is the scared feeling I have when she stays out late. Or the feeling that I am losing her She's the mixed emotions I have, I hope the man that steals her heart, will treat her like a queen. Because she deserves so much more, than a man that treats her mean.

She gave life. She is a wife. She is a mother and she is a friend. She is a sister, a survivor till the end. Appreciate her, we don't dare. Ask her worries, we don't care. Wipe away her tears, they are invisible as air. She works, cooks, and cleans. She laughs, helps comfort, and hides her pain. When you struggle, she pulls you through. All this is her, and what do we do? Complain and create a mess, Provide stress and leave her feeling depressed, Push her away and ignore her advice, Tell her she is nothing without thinking twice. She was raped tortured and abused. Told she was nothing and would always be used, Just for pleasure, forget her pain. She swallows her pride, put her feelings aside. Does as you need in order for you to be free. Ignores your ignorance and tolerates your flaws. You call her names, but She answers with pride, dignity, and a complete loss of self. You call her nothing. I call her Strong, Smart, Sensual, Caring, Giving, Surviving...

You may see me struggle,  but you won't see me fall.  Regardless if I'm weak or not,  I'm going to stand tall.  Everyone says life is easy,  but truly living it is not. Times get hard,  people struggle and constantly get put on the spot.  I'm going to wear the biggest smile,  even though I want to cry.  I'm going to fight to live, even though I'm destined to die.  And even though it's hard  and I may struggle through it all, you may see me struggle... but you will NEVER see me fall.

While you weren't here I cried every night. A million tears fell Still my heart wasn't right. While you weren't here I did what I could, Hoping against hope My decisions were good. While you weren't here I gained some in age. Things just went on And life turned a page. While you weren't here I just tried to go on, Knowing what didn't kill me Would only make me strong. While you weren't here A whole lot got changed. My life became different, My world rearranged. While you weren't here I had to learn to be alone, To stand on my two feet, To make my own home So that's where I am now, At this stage of my life, Still scared and alone, Still coping with strife. And oh how I wish that Things could be different, That I could go back To a time in the past, To a time before You weren't here.

Because I know who I am, I'm at ease and free. I can't be like others, And they can't be me. I've got fading scars, An unusual physique, But it all works together To make me unique. I've got hidden strengths, Some obvious flaws. Still I am who I am, For better for worse. I don't have to blend in; I won't live a lie. I can't please everyone; I won't even try. Some call me proud; Others stare at me in alarm. But I'm not one to bother, Because I know who I am.

The Years have passed by, In the blink of an eye, Moments of sadness, And joy have flown by. People I loved, Have come and have gone, But the world never stopped, And we all carried on. Life wasn't easy, And the struggles were there, Filled with times that it mattered, Times I just didn't care. I stood on my own, And I still found my way, Through some nights filled with tears, And the dawn of new days. And now with old age, It's become very clear, Things I once found important, Were not why I was here. And how many things, That I managed to buy, Were never what made me, Feel better inside. And the worries and fears, That plagued me each day, In the end of it all, Would just fade away. But how much I reached out, To others when needed, Would be the true measure, Of how I succeeded. And how much I shared, Of my soul and my heart, Would ultimately be, What set me apart. And what's really important, Is my opinion of me, And whether or n...

My basketball represents Much more than what is shown. Though to the eye of others It's not something that is known. The round shape is a circle, That means never giving in. A circle is forever, So I'll work until i win. The bumps along the ball, Stand for weakness all combined. Each little nook stands for the pain That I have left behind. So when you see my basketball, Do you think it through? It means so much more to me Than it ever could to you. The crowd calls my name Last shot of the game 3 seconds on the clock I haven't even passed the half court line There's no way I can make it from here But my team is way too far behind I have to take the shot, that much is clear I manage to fake the defender out I get the ball into the air I hear my  teammates shout It might just make it there I shake the other player's hands After all, we only played for fun Before that shot we were down by two But now we are up by one

Life is sometimes like a basketball game. Everything you need to make a shot is there The rims to guide the ball in the board as a platform for those shots that seem to be going in behind to get back in Essentially, all you need to do is just to take that shot; Practise on precision and learn to make use of what's available in your environment. Do not overlook anything at all.

Troublesome love . . . will not let you sleep . . . Sort of like a basketball game . . .  Questions are bounced mad and furiously against the hard wood floor with only more questions bouncing back . Meanwhile someone is trying to steal your dreams causing you to twist and turn distorting your image . And you fight your way down the court of life and toss your hopes and dreams into the air 

Imagine yourself Alone in your head. You're hanging, dangling From a silver thread. Empty, alone With the monsters within. Internally screaming, You just want to give in. Now imagine that's you Every day, every hour. Forever sinking Like a wilting flower. And you try to tell your mom, But they say you're being silly, You've just got to move on. You think that there's none Who knows how you feel. You're just so alone, But the feelings- they're real. Useless, Neglected, Forgotten, Distressed. Alone, Afraid, But mostly Depressed. And you're friends, They must not care, Your thoughts whisper, The lies in your brain. You can't escape it, Trapped in your own skin. But you mask it with a grin. You hate what you feel, So instead you feel nothing. Your insides are numb, Your confidence crumbling And the people around you Shout abuse your way. "You're hurting yourself, stop it!" That's all they ever sa...

Of course I'm fine, why do you ask? Oh, don't mind this, it's just my mask. It hides the grief, it hides the strife. I wear this mask to escape the knife. Don't forget this, my pain is real. I'm not lying, this is how I feel. You sit there saying it can't be true. It is for me, just not for you. You say my heart must be a sight, Cold as ice and black as night. It's not my heart, only my soul, But killing me must be your goal. You're getting close, I hope you know. You really don't have far to go. Soon enough I'll reach my end. You'll have my soul to tear and rend. But you don't know, you never ask. You never look beyond the mask. The look on my face is giving me away. I wonder now, what you will say? You've asked me here; you'll know now. I can't do it now, tell you the truth. I must keep up my pretense of youth. "Of course I'm fine, why do you ask? Oh, don't mind this, it's just my...

Never did I ever, Think I would fall; As hard as I did, if not at all. Never did I ever, Think I would feel; These feelings of worry, love, and fear. Never did I ever; Believe I could be; With you to complete a more beautiful me. Never did I ever; Wish this much, To kiss your lips and feel your touch. Never did I ever; Imagine this day, When you looked me in the eyes and told me you'd stay. That I'd trust you with all the secrets I'd share. Never did I ever; Think we would fight, Screaming and arguing till the end of the night. Never did I ever; Think I'd feel this pain, My world filled with sorrow, trouble, and rain. Never did I ever, Think you'd be so cruel, I guess I really was a fool. Never did I ever, Think our relationship would feel wrong, Like a high singer in a low pitch song. Never did I ever, Think we would end. But never ever ever, has started to begin. Never did I ever, Think I would cry, So hard that I wished I could ju...

Afraid to love Afraid to hold All the stories untold Why am I afraid Of loving Afraid of being broken It's so easy to take my heart and throw it away I will stay silent  The only sound you will hear Is the shatter of my tear The dropping of my heart Like a display of art So beautiful Afraid to love  Afraid to hold All these stories, I've never told

The hopeful glimmer in your eyes, hoping he will recognize. The way you smile just for him, knowing deep down the chance is slim. He will never see past your face, the scars you bear cannot all be traced. You sit and mope, ask me what you should do, I'd tell you in a heartbeat, if only I knew. I can tell you both live different life's, one who shines the other in strife. You say that you don't really care,  that he hardly notices you're ever there. I know you're lying and so do you, but it's not my place to tell you what to do. To get over him and clear your mind, is a solution I believe you will never find. You're my friend and I will always be here, to dry your eyes and offer an ear.  Sitting there and watching you fall apart, is weighing heavily on my heart. He is always on your mind and your pride is forgone. I think it's time to just move on.

Before I became strong, I knew what it was like To be weak, How difficult it is to love yourself, To find the wholeness that you seek. Before I knew the light,  I have had my fair share of darkness, too, Where my world fell into a hopelessness And I didn't know how to get through. For I have known the tears it takes, The courage to stand up again, When you are broken down and bruised And you know nothing but the pain. You forget to appreciate love, If you haven't seen the hate, Till you forget the meaning of smile and laughter, And your heart is left abate. I have known the strength and courage It requires to get it right, To face the things that hold you down And hold your head up and fight. Before I was who I am now, I was someone I didn't want to be. I was lost, battered, and defeated, Before I knew how to be me !

To be kissed by moonlight And caressed by stars, Draped in darkened blue, Dancing from Jupiter to Mars. To be found by the light of the moon And loved under a blackened sky. Let the sun forget about me; It never heard me cry. Because there's something special about moonlight, Like it was made just for me,  Because no matter how bad things are, I have the moon as company.

Here I sit, all alone in my quiet, empty home. Where do broken hearts go I don't know! Rest assured, grasping our love and the memories we made. I can't let you go. I can't make you stay. Tears and sadness are how I live. So full of sadness, consumed in grey. You will be mine again someday, but for now

At first I wasn't looking for love. I wanted no one in my life, for I had totally given up. All I wanted was to hide. But for just a moment I gave you a chance.  I let my guard down,  One last try at romance. I never imagined that I would find all this and more. The best friend and lover that one could ever hope for. A friend I can count on, to listen and understand. A lover for me to hold who is truly a good man. I love when you smile and all the things you do, so I want you to know that you're my dream come true. I know in my heart now that no one else will do.

The knot is strong, The strings are tight. It won't break loose, No matter how much I fight. The grip is fierce, Disguised in every tear. I wish to overcome This emptiness of fear. I know once on my own, I might not survive. But there is a mere chance For me to be alive. The cost of losing the bond Could be my biggest mistake. But I am done living A life I can no longer fake.