Abstruse one

Thanks for playing with my feelings,  How i wish i could stop my heart from beating,  Thanks for playing with my heart,  At least to you this was a fun part,  you have left me broken, with my eyes filled with tears and fears,  At least you are whole, with smile on your face and not a sight of fear,  To you i was just a game, that you tried to win and succeeded,  Now that you are bored you've left me deserted,  Thanks for playing with my head,  Your sick little mind games,  You kept me guessing, till the very end,  Thanks for playing with my emotions,  According to you this was my weakness,  Thanks for your fake love,  Thanks for pretending that your cared,  Thanks for strengthening my belief, that LOVE is nothing but a pain causing pill,  Thanks for showing me that friendship is something that does not really exist,  Thanks for breaking my trust, for opening up, for sharing my thoughts,...

I have given all my love to you, but what do I get in return?  A broken heart. I have given you my heart, and you stomp on it like a doormat. I have given you my youth and you took advantage of my un-experienced heart and played with my emotions. I gave you all the trust, but you misused it. I gave you the benefit of the doubt, and you proved everyone right. I gave you my life and you killed me day by day. I want to pull my aching heart and tear it piece by piece so I no longer love you. I want to lose my memory so I no longer think of you. I want to go so far so I no longer have to see you.  I want to cry, but I no longer have any more tears to fall down  my sad, lonely face. I want to sleep, but my dreams haunt me with you in them. I can't seem to find a way out. What do I do? I don't want anyone to see this, not even you. How do I get out of this? How do I stop this misery? How do solve this mystery? I can't seem to find anyone to make me feel the way ...

If you loved me You'd have never done the things you did. I try to rationalize the obvious find a means to why. Why after all this time You gave up... You threw me away.... But I can only come to one conclusion though it pains me to say. You never loved me. Despite myself I find the truth so cold. It was all a lie. The whispers of love the thought of a life shared All of it gone in a moment Because you gave up. Ignored me for days on end and then despite my love threw it right back at me. Love is dead in my soul Torn to tatters by your careless cold words. My heart no longer beats but it is a vessel. Where I walk no more tears  can be cried Memories linger along these back allied streets Now a cold reminder of what was never meant to be. Love is lost to me No more will sunlight touch my inner chamber. Your love was tainted poison and now it has poisoned my soul my heart and mind. The pain wont leave me, and sadly it never even touched you. Maybe you ...

I wanted to stand next to him Crave happiness to the brim  Be there for him as much as I could I love him and told him I would  He told me I made him at ease  Even when I am a pain, he agrees Yet his eyes were never shining  I love him and he was confining  He told me he cared, that I believed Little did I know my heart was deceived  By the man who seemed to be right there  I love him and he was fully aware  I did ask if we could work things out We could, but he was full of doubt My heart was taken, he caused the theft I love him and one day he left Oh these days suddenly seem so long  I sit here and think of what went wrong This pain no one should have to contain I love him and never saw him again I still think about him to this day  Wondering if he is content or went astray Don't ask if I am well, I will disagree I love him and he never loved me  Oh, I love him and he never loved me

Try to be strong as your world crumbles  Try to be strong when no one cares about you anymore You don’t have anything they want Try to be strong because they decided you are a waste of time Try to hang on to your sanity when nothing is going you way Turn your depression into anger when the few remaining bloodsuckers want what is left of you. Make them never forget you.

When you see her cry      you get a rag, a gentle delicate cloth. Lovingly grasp her hand and dab its tip;  dry each tear as they come.                                                            ­                 And ask each drop                                                           ...

All the silence does not mean You are alone, It is the world waiting for you To listen; And in the darkness you are Found by the light Of your hope. And in the tears of your Pain you are born, There you become stronger And it creates order. Pick up your flesh as your spirit Lifts, And speak your happiness  As if the tip of your tongue Was the mountain's peak Speaking at the sky, The burden is a caged bird And only the conscious can set It free. And sing to yourself so that You know you are never alone In your body. Know that your crazy is beautiful  Because it makes you YOU, Wear your skin like Your cozy blanket and cuddle In the warmth of yourself.      You are not broken, But scattered like the night  With pieces like stars shining,     Open your pain and yourself To the wound of the world and heal  Whatever you choose.

The only part of my day That I look forward to  Is when I go to bed  And lay there making up scenarios  In my head.  I think of comebacks  To 8th grade bullies. I think of witty retorts To my mother's snide comments.  I think of intelligent things to add To conversations I had months ago.  I think of all the things  I was too scared to say.  And in my mind  I say them.  And pretend how things would be different If only I had the courage to speak.

Silence is my loudest cry, Although my eyes seem to be dry, What I am trying to imply, Is that no one see’s the burning red eye.  Hidden beneath a shining smile, Leaving the room in amazing style, Is a girl in single file, Walking alone the next one hundred miles. When the girl looks up to the stars. All she sees is a million prison bars, Trapped and enclosed and no one knows, The girl of course never shows. Behind a smile is a broken girl, Trying to fight this horrid world, Her emotions soon begin to swirl, Breaking another broken girl.

Thing is. I wouldn’t usually even try to figure this one out. She’s so different.  So special.  And I get nervous.  The butterflies take away my eloquence.  They make me stumble.  And with her I would stumble anyway Because she comes from a different mind I want to understand I want to understand I want to understand She humbles me.  I’ve hardly ever felt so humbled It’s like she knows. Her perspective - I wish to taste it But the butterflies - And there’s this wall there I’m learning Please be patient I stumble - We all stumble And you humble me and I stumble again Your achievements fill me with pride. And they’re not even mine.  Pride and happiness for you. Because you deserve it. You deserve greatness. I want to understand  I want to understand I want to understand.

There's more that meets the eyes  And this will never change  It's too complicated to explain why  The answer will never be the same  Just remember to hold us when we cry And beware those moments we act insane  Sometimes a firm, warm place to land  Is the only thing to soothe our weary brain  Were difficult at best, impossible at worst  But true love is always on our mind first  Some women want the finer things in life  Some just want children and to be a good wife  Others need to be held and reassured constantly  Some just want to trust and receive honesty No matter the woman, you'll never understand us all  But keep in mind... There's no greater feeling than the fall

Days when I just want to die, I look deep into your eyes. I see the warmth and your smile, and feel content for awhile. I wonder why I felt that way, But because of you I will stay.

I once knew a girl she was happy and young  until raped by a stranger's lust I once thought of a girl she was scared and frightened tried to bury the remains of her past I once thought I knew a girl But she was damaged at full never loved or could be loved I once was that girl But I hid behind a cover story of "just a girl".

When all of a sudden, A person makes you feel so comfortable, That you start and end your day with them. You have got no idea about what's going on and you end up being more than best friends. There is this relationship, Which is more of understanding, More of emotions, He knows what I want without me saying it. The very eye contact we almost everyday avoid so that non of us could see that we adore them. The silence is more than enough to say words. I know you are a bit more sensitive than I'm, I know you are a bit more hurt than I'm, But trust me , I would love to heal all your pains, I would love to spend my life with you. But the fact is contradicting. I know you respect me, I know you adore me, But at the same time you think I'm far too perfect to be with. Which at some point hurts me. But still there is some hope, That one day you'll understand the love I carry in my heart for you. I may not say things, But I care, I may not show, B...

I know that feeling of being lost I know that feeling that there is no one out there who understands What you're going through and the emotions that you have But listen to me Hear these words that I'm about to say I understand what you're going through The emotions that you are feeling I understand and I want to help Because once ago I was going through The same thing

I had so much to say but then I lost the courage.  You wouldn't want to hear them, I know. I'm no good expressing what I want to, When my heart's about to be throw out of my mouth. The tightness on my throat intensifies and I stand quiet, While my head's about to be blown away with so many thoughts. Because every time we say goodbye,  It feels like I'm about to say something. But then I look at you and I've all the answers. I don't even know what that means. You shake me to the core, I feel alive  And so afraid, that I'm the only one feeling that way. You break my walls, the next second I'm building them up again. Because every time we say goodbye,  It feels like I'm about to say something. But then I look at you and I've all the answers. I don't even know what that means. Please, show me that you want to get to know me, That you fucking care, That you'll be there if I need. I trust you so much. I can't unders...